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Lukahhhhhhhh
Lukah Bell
Artist | Varied
United States
Hi I'm Lukah and Drawing is my thing.

Nineteen, anatomy obsessionist, avid reader, and aspiring artist
Korean/Eastern European | Pansexual/Panromantic | BPD, Hyper-empathy, and Dyscalculia | Water Fae

This is my second dA account so altogether I've had a dA for nearly nine years.

I'm always willing to talk and I'd like to be able to give everyone a chance to be friends.

I use he/him or they/them pronouns.

I'm an INTP whose hyper empathy causes them to act like an INFP around other people with occasional ENFP tendencies.
Confusing, I know, it's okay.

If you want to see all of my art, you have to go to the show all gallery thing, because a large amount of my work is NOT in the featured.

I fucking love anatomy and it's what started me on drawing.

I love character dynamics and how they fit together almost as much so I tend to look too hard into small things that characters do and say.

If you want to contact me for anything you can find me here, on my twitter, or on Skype

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My Art Tumblr

My Twitter

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  • Mood: Questionable

copied from my tweets

Every time someone says they have OCD when they really just want something neat or organized, I want to make them have my stutter for a year

Them: *straightens something* ugh I’m so OCD, sorry
Me: *stares*

I wish all my throat clearing, door opening, heavy blinking, hand washing, word repeating, skin scratching compulsions on you

I want you to get trapped stuttering and repeating words, wondering when you’ll finally stop

I want you to scratch at your skin because it feels uneven

I want you to clear your throat over and over until it’s literally raw and bleeding

I want you to blink so hard again and again that it breaks blood vessels

I want you to wash your hands, and hair, and face, again and again and again until you feel broken because you still can’t stop, and your skin is beyond new, it’s sappy and peeling and cracked from abuse

I want you to pull eyelashes until you have none, to peel your lips until they’re bloody, take hours to get where you’re going because you keep closing and reopening doors. 

I want you to spend ONE DAY feeling this shit I do

and then, I fucking dare you to say you have OCD just because you want something in order. 

You fucking say that to my face.

I didn’t think I’d really add to this, but here’s yet another rant from my twitter.

“Oh OCD isn’t that bad!! You just want everything neat and tidy right?? And you do neat quirky stuff!” 

When people say things like this, I genuinely fume. I get so intensely angry, I feel literally physically sick.

Like do you actually think of OCD as cute and quirky?? 

[part of this was edited out because dA doesn't have a good warning system or non deviation picture system. Full thing here: lukahhhhhhhh.tumblr.com/post/1… Content Warning for possible eye horror]

People ask me “Why don’t you just stop?”

That’s literally why I was diagnosed as having OCD. I CAN’T “JUST STOP” MY COMPULSIONS, THAT’S WHY THEY’RE CALLED COMPULSIONS. THEY’RE COMPULSIVE.

Compulsion:  an irresistible urge to behave in a certain way, especially against one’s conscious wishes. syn: Impulse.

So the next time you decide to say you’re OCD, or, god forbid, say you WISH you had OCD??
I want you to think about this shit and how much it fucking sucks to live with.

And don’t get me wrong, I fully support self diagnosis.
Not everyone has access to situations that can get them officially diagnosed.
And no one knows you, better than you.


But do not use the term OCD as interchangeable for quirky or tidy, and DO NOT downplay the struggle it puts me and many other people, through on a daily basis.

I snip and rant about how people regard OCD a lot; and I’ll admit it, I’m bitter as hell but, I’m not wrong!!! 

So the next time you say you’re OCD, or WISH you had OCD????
Think about how I’m gonna fucking punch you in the face for being an asshole.

Activity


Drawpile Sketch Dump two by Lukahhhhhhhh
Drawpile Sketch Dump two
I drew with ToFu-SouP on drawpile again, here's my stuff so far tonight!!
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Drawpile Sketch Dump one by Lukahhhhhhhh
Drawpile Sketch Dump one
I'd been drawing on drawpile tonight with ToFu-SouP, this is what I did tonight.
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Cogs And Gears Guide by Lukahhhhhhhh
Cogs And Gears Guide
I did a small guide for clockwork gears for a friend on twitter and figured I'd share it here to help others!

my handwriting is a mess so if anyone needs me to type it out I can do that!!
And if you have any questions I'm here!! <3
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  • Mood: Questionable

copied from my tweets

Every time someone says they have OCD when they really just want something neat or organized, I want to make them have my stutter for a year

Them: *straightens something* ugh I’m so OCD, sorry
Me: *stares*

I wish all my throat clearing, door opening, heavy blinking, hand washing, word repeating, skin scratching compulsions on you

I want you to get trapped stuttering and repeating words, wondering when you’ll finally stop

I want you to scratch at your skin because it feels uneven

I want you to clear your throat over and over until it’s literally raw and bleeding

I want you to blink so hard again and again that it breaks blood vessels

I want you to wash your hands, and hair, and face, again and again and again until you feel broken because you still can’t stop, and your skin is beyond new, it’s sappy and peeling and cracked from abuse

I want you to pull eyelashes until you have none, to peel your lips until they’re bloody, take hours to get where you’re going because you keep closing and reopening doors. 

I want you to spend ONE DAY feeling this shit I do

and then, I fucking dare you to say you have OCD just because you want something in order. 

You fucking say that to my face.

I didn’t think I’d really add to this, but here’s yet another rant from my twitter.

“Oh OCD isn’t that bad!! You just want everything neat and tidy right?? And you do neat quirky stuff!” 

When people say things like this, I genuinely fume. I get so intensely angry, I feel literally physically sick.

Like do you actually think of OCD as cute and quirky?? 

[part of this was edited out because dA doesn't have a good warning system or non deviation picture system. Full thing here: lukahhhhhhhh.tumblr.com/post/1… Content Warning for possible eye horror]

People ask me “Why don’t you just stop?”

That’s literally why I was diagnosed as having OCD. I CAN’T “JUST STOP” MY COMPULSIONS, THAT’S WHY THEY’RE CALLED COMPULSIONS. THEY’RE COMPULSIVE.

Compulsion:  an irresistible urge to behave in a certain way, especially against one’s conscious wishes. syn: Impulse.

So the next time you decide to say you’re OCD, or, god forbid, say you WISH you had OCD??
I want you to think about this shit and how much it fucking sucks to live with.

And don’t get me wrong, I fully support self diagnosis.
Not everyone has access to situations that can get them officially diagnosed.
And no one knows you, better than you.


But do not use the term OCD as interchangeable for quirky or tidy, and DO NOT downplay the struggle it puts me and many other people, through on a daily basis.

I snip and rant about how people regard OCD a lot; and I’ll admit it, I’m bitter as hell but, I’m not wrong!!! 

So the next time you say you’re OCD, or WISH you had OCD????
Think about how I’m gonna fucking punch you in the face for being an asshole.

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HostileCobalt Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2015  Student General Artist
First, I'd love to thank you for taking the time to look and fav my art, I appreciate it so much!

Second, I took the time to explore your page and I have to say, you are such a beautiful human being. I loved reading about how you love people, how you appreciate and admire the beauty in every race, gender, culture, etc.. Not many people are like that, unfortunately, but I'm so glad I got to see at least one person that is. :heart:
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ValsparinDragon Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much for the :llama: :happybounce:


Have one back, and have an amazing day and stay awsome! :highfive: :highfive:
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NiemandsHeld Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015
Thanks for faving my kelpie! :33
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Dyvas Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
c: Thanks for the fave again! Keep up the good work! 
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for adding Green cape to your collections. I'm happy that you like the piece :la:
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Lepuscurpaeums Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug:
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TheEagleAndTheWolf Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the favorite :)
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EmiliAlys Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2015  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the fav :D
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NamiBot Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the favorite!!
~ Nami
Mochizou Ooji (Cheer thumbs up) [V1] 
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maxyvert Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch  :aww:
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