copied from my tweets
Every time someone says they have OCD when they really just want something neat or organized, I want to make them have my stutter for a year
Them: *straightens something* ugh I’m so OCD, sorry
I wish all my throat clearing, door opening, heavy blinking, hand washing, word repeating, skin scratching compulsions on you
I want you to get trapped stuttering and repeating words, wondering when you’ll finally stop
I want you to scratch at your skin because it feels uneven
I want you to clear your throat over and over until it’s literally raw and bleeding
I want you to blink so hard again and again that it breaks blood vessels
I want you to wash your hands, and hair, and face, again and again and again until you feel broken because you still can’t stop, and your skin is beyond new, it’s sappy and peeling and cracked from abuse
I want you to pull eyelashes until you have none, to peel your lips until they’re bloody, take hours to get where you’re going because you keep closing and reopening doors.
I want you to spend ONE DAY feeling this shit I do
and then, I fucking dare you to say you have OCD just because you want something in order.
You fucking say that to my face.
I didn’t think I’d really add to this, but here’s yet another rant from my twitter.
“Oh OCD isn’t that bad!! You just want everything neat and tidy right?? And you do neat quirky stuff!”
When people say things like this, I genuinely fume. I get so intensely angry, I feel literally physically sick.
Like do you actually think of OCD as cute and quirky??
[part of this was edited out because dA doesn't have a good warning system or non deviation picture system. Full thing here: lukahhhhhhhh.tumblr.com/post/1… Content Warning for possible eye horror]
People ask me “Why don’t you just stop?”
That’s literally why I was diagnosed as having OCD. I CAN’T “JUST STOP” MY COMPULSIONS, THAT’S WHY THEY’RE CALLED COMPULSIONS. THEY’RE COMPULSIVE.
Compulsion: an irresistible urge to behave in a certain way, especially against one’s conscious wishes. syn: Impulse.
So the next time you decide to say you’re OCD, or, god forbid, say you WISH you had OCD??
I want you to think about this shit and how much it fucking sucks to live with.
And don’t get me wrong, I fully support self diagnosis.
Not everyone has access to situations that can get them officially diagnosed.
And no one knows you, better than you.
But do not use the term OCD as interchangeable for quirky or tidy, and DO NOT downplay the struggle it puts me and many other people, through on a daily basis.
I snip and rant about how people regard OCD a lot; and I’ll admit it, I’m bitter as hell but, I’m not wrong!!!
So the next time you say you’re OCD, or WISH you had OCD????
Think about how I’m gonna fucking punch you in the face for being an asshole.